It has been entirely too long since I've made an update in here. A
lot of time has passed, and I'm too far behind to even want to catch up,
so new year, fresh start. 2013 was full of ups and downs. Kevin and I
got signed up in April for Fall semester of school, Sarah fell and
broke her arm, we visited my family in August, and later that month we
started school again for the first time in years. And it wasn't as hard
as I thought it would be. It was definitely a balancing act, being a
full on Mommy and a full on student, but I did it. One of the biggest
falls in 2013 is that my Mom was placed in a nursing home, and my Dad in
assistant living. It's a long story, but basically, Dad wasn't taking
care of himself properly (some wonder if it's early dementia, others thinks maybe he had a stroke..so far no tests or anything have been...but I really think it's because he wasn't eating right, and he has diabetes, and it was affecting him. Since being placed in the assistant living, he's been put on a diet, and I think he's much better...so it sucks he has to live there.), and because of that, wasn't taking care of Mom
properly. Mom is in a wheelchair, and needs help with things, and
while Dad was able to provide her with the most basic of needs (eating,
drinking, shelter) he had a hard time keeping up with other important
needs. It's been hard on them, but they are okay with it now. Mom
really enjoys where she's at, and while Dad hated where he was for
awhile, he too has come around, and is okay. Me? Well, I know it
sounds stupid, maybe even selfish, but sometimes, I just have a hard
time dealing with it. Sometimes, I'll hear a song that my Mom liked
when she was younger and carefree, and I get a pang in my heart, knowing
she's living in a nursing home now.... Or when I'm talking to my Dad
and he tells me how much he misses my Mom. They are one hour apart now,
and he's not allowed to drive. He hasn't seen the woman he's married
to for almost 36 years now since Christmas. It's also hard on me, because I know if I lived in NC, I would become his Guardian, and I could decide whether or not he lives in an Assistant Living...he had a hearing recently to decide if he was competent or not, and it was decided by a judge who doesn't know him that he's not, but was told that things weren't his fault, it's because my sisters who live there didn't do enough for him, and the Landlords for not checking up on her property, ever...
But 2013
hasn't been all bad. And I have a good feeling 2014 will be even better.
We're back in school again. Just finished my first week there. I miss my old classes, which is funny because at the time, I couldn't wait to be finished with writing essays in English, or preparing Speeches for speech class. But, I do enjoy my new classes, except for History of Photography. I guess it's not really what I'm learning about, it's the fact that the teacher is So.Damn.Boring. But my other classes (Math, Film Appreciation and Photography 1) aren't that bad, I suppose.
Yawn. Anyway, I hope to start updating this a bit more often now. But I probably won't.
Next time, I'll do it with pictures too. :)
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